Tuesday, March 31, 2009
BIG NEWS!!!!
I havent blogged in a while, but we got back from our cruise on March 22nd, Sunday night, and Monday morning we found out.......WERE PREGNANT!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG, I can't believe it, I guess there was 1 very determined sperm!!!!!!!!! I am feeling great. So diffrent than our other pregnancy!! I am tired, but soooo hungry!! No morning sickness..yet!! My breasts hurt a little (they hurt TONS last time) but they have like doubled in size already!!!! Hopefully the nursing will be successful this time! EEK!!!! We can't believe it!!!
Saturday, March 14, 2009
The countdown....
I can't wait for this vacation. We sooo need it. It will be wonderful to spend some quality family time together. In paradise. With Mickey. Sweet!!
Friday, March 13, 2009
Negative!!!
The preliminary results show no growth!! That is so good!! Now, that can change as time goes on, but hopefully it won't. We are starting her on some Monistat cream with every diaper change (just externally) to see if mabey it is a yeast infection. Please continue to pray that no growth occurs on the culture and we don't need to start our angel on antibiotics!!
Still waiting....
Still waiting to find out any results, and my poor little girl is still running a low-grade fever, but is eating and drinking well. Hopefully I will find something out before the end of the day!!
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Rough Day!!
OK, so our daughter has been acting very weird the last few days, always croutching down on the legs of toys and chairs, kinda like "ride the pony" sitting, with anything hard in between her legs. She has also been very tender when we were wiping her and she would try to close her legs. I took her to the doctors today. We got a urine sample and it came back with alot of blood and white blood cells. So, they said that she has a UTI and they needed to send off a sterile specimen to do a culture to pick the right antibiotics. They had to straight cath my little angel!! It broke my heart. She was laying, screaming on the table and she kept looking at me and saying "get down" and then she would say "go night-night". Talk about heart-wrenching!! So they were using a 5 french catheter on her because it is the smallest they had and they wanted it to be as comfortable for her as possible, but she was so worked up that once the cath was in, she started urinating AROUND the cath, and we were only able to get about 7cc's of sterile urine. They called the lab, and thankfully, they were able to run a culture on that little amount. They were ordering it as a STAT, and I actually saw the lab courier vhiecle pulling in as we were pulling out. She has been running a low-grade temp all day, and if it goes over 100.4, no matter what time, we have to call the on-call doctor. They gave me a prescription for bactrim, but we are holding off on giving it to her until the culture and sensitivity come back. I don't want to give it to her for a few days, just to find out that it is not effective against her infection and have to give her another antibiotic. I do not like all these drugs for my little angel. We will hopefully have the preliminary report back tomorrow, if not Saturday. Please pray for a quick diagnosis and uneventful course of treatment. We got some cranberry juice that we will make part of her daily drinkings now, to hopefully keep this from happening again.
On the baby front, I ovulated 2 days ago, but I am not holding my breath!! My wonderful husband just keeps reminding me that "it only takes one" and it happened once already, so it could again. Please pray with us for another blessing.
I will update once we get some test results.
On the baby front, I ovulated 2 days ago, but I am not holding my breath!! My wonderful husband just keeps reminding me that "it only takes one" and it happened once already, so it could again. Please pray with us for another blessing.
I will update once we get some test results.
Monday, March 9, 2009
Not Me Monday
I did not take my daughter to the mall playplace, and let her climb up all the slides the wrong way. I would not do such a thing!! I always show her the right way to do things.
I also would not have allowed her to carry her sippy cup all around the germ-infested playplace. I did not give into her two-year-old tantrum and just let her take it. Not me!!!
I did not let that same little girl go diaperless in an attempt to start potty-training!!
And, last but not least, I did not allow that last picture to be posted sideways just because I can't figure out how to rotate it!! NOT ME!!! (if you have any suggestions, they are welcome!!)
Dead.....they're all dead!!!
Catchy post title, huh?? Well, I guess you can all deduct how todays PCT went. For the u/s, there were several small follicles on the right, but a 19mm dominant follicle on the left!! This would be great if I didn't kill of the sperm!! This will be 2 months in a row that I will ovulate from my left side. I want to continue this trend, seeing as I do not have a fallopian tube on my right side. My RE has suggested us to try the IUI. We will do a follicle scan u/s on or around day 17 next cycle. Then, if my dominant follicle is on the left, we will schedule the IUI, but if it is on the right, we will hold off on the IUI. Basically, there is no point in doing it when I am ovulating on the right side, so we don't need to "waste" our money.
Funny side note, I called my Mom after the appointment today (she is the only family member that knows of the struggles we are having, and she just found out in December). I was telling her about the IUI and how the doctor said it will cost $200 per IUI, but my insurance covers 50% of all my treatments and meds at this time, so it will only cost us $100 (which is WAY less than I thought it would cost). My Mom then told me that if we have a boy, we need to name him Ben, or at least have that for a middle name. I, of course, was confused as to where she came up with the name Ben, and she replied, "because he cost $100, like Benjamin Franklin on the $100 bill". This is a very cute observation, my Mom is so funny!!!
Funny side note, I called my Mom after the appointment today (she is the only family member that knows of the struggles we are having, and she just found out in December). I was telling her about the IUI and how the doctor said it will cost $200 per IUI, but my insurance covers 50% of all my treatments and meds at this time, so it will only cost us $100 (which is WAY less than I thought it would cost). My Mom then told me that if we have a boy, we need to name him Ben, or at least have that for a middle name. I, of course, was confused as to where she came up with the name Ben, and she replied, "because he cost $100, like Benjamin Franklin on the $100 bill". This is a very cute observation, my Mom is so funny!!!
Sunday, March 8, 2009
Random thoughts, and random picture challenge
ok, so I am back for a quick one. My appt is in the morning, and I am very nervous. Just because I feel like a failure, and this appointment will CONFIRM that I am a failure. Oh well, no more self-pity!!!
I am going to try out this random picture challenge from Britney at 4 little men and girly twins!! I hope it works!!
This is a picture we took while at lunch for my birthday. Lunch was at Cheeseburger in Paradise and that sign for the bahamas was right by our table. I found it very relevant because we had just booked our Disney cruise to the bahamas!!! (we are leaving in 9 days, but who is counting?!?!?!?)
OK, so I will report back after my appointment tomorrow. Goodnight cyberspace!!
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Introduction
Wow!! So, this is new... I am creating this blog to document our journey to have more children. It is a very sensitive subject, and most people that we know in real life do not know of our recent struggles. It makes me feel good to be able to say everything here, if even just to get it off my chest. Lets start with our background....well, my husband and I met in May 2002 at a bar (although our children will think we met at a library!!) I feel as if it was love at first sight!! I knew there was something about him....something I wanted in my life forever. We were married a little over 3 years later in June of 2005.
My whole life I had "womanly" problems, and was told at the ripe age of 13 that I may not ever be able to have children, but failed to ask more questions at that point in time (and really, what 13 year old would?!?!). I was put on birth control pills (BCP) to keep my cycles regular and to actually have cycles. I continued on that BCP until March 2006. We wanted to start our family!!! Easy right, no, but I guess it kinda was.... I went off the BCP in March, and didn't get my period until I took some Provera to induce it. I then started on Clomid!! I took my first Clomid pill on May 15th, 2006, and on June 8th, 2008, much to our surprise, we got a positive pregnancy test!!! (Actually, 8 positive tests because I couldn't believe the first seven!!!) Wow!! I was pregnant!!! I truley did not expect it to hapen so quickly and easily, but still thank God every day that it did!!
I had a rather uneventful pregnancy, well of course except for my cyst. Now, before we get too far, let me tell you that the reason I was told I would have troubles concieving was because I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS or PCOD). Basically, my hormones are all out-of-whack and I make loads of timy cysts on my ovaries that inhibit ovulation. But, that Clomid stuff was great!! I not only ovulated, but I got pregnant....firt try!!! OK, back to my pregnancy: I had what started out as a corpous leutem cyst on my right ovary. Now, these type of cysts are nessecary in the beginning of every pregnancy. This cyst secretes the hormones necessary to maintain the pregnancy until the end of the first trimester when the placenta is functioning for this. Once the placenta takes over, the cyst is supposed to shrink away to nothing. Not mine...I think mine was possessed!!! Instead of shrinking, mine grew....and grew, and grew, and grew!! Now, luckily I was not having any pains from this cyst throught my pregnancy, but by the time I hit 37 weeks, I was in pain. The pain started off as an uncomfortable feeling, which overnight turned into sharp, stabbing pains. My doctor sent me to the hospital, and we had to get the baby out before any permanent damage was done to me. Our daughter was born at 37 weeks 1 day, weighing 5#6oz. I had to have a C-Section, and at which time the doctor excised my grapefruit sized cyst.
Wow!!! Motherhood is wonderful!! I have a beautiful daughter, who I love more and more with every passing day (even though she is currently undergoing the "terrible two's"). How Blessed are we!!! Well, 6 months after delicery, that rogue cyst came back!!! YUCK!!!! So, I had to have another surgery, and unfortunatley, the cyst had caused my right fallopian tube to lose its blood flow, and the necrotic tissue had to be removed. I lost a tube, but I still had another, and I still had both of my ovaries. The persistant cyst came AGAIN in January of 2008, but ruptured on its own while I was in the ER, so no surgery was necessary. Knock on wood, no more huge cysts since...
So, life is great!! We have a beautiful daughter who we just adore!!! But there is still more love in our hearts to be shared. It was simple last time, so just give me those Clomid pills again, and I will be a happy camper!!!
Not so easy this time!! Actually, starting October 2007 we were off BCP's and trying naturally since for the first time in my life I was having cycles on my own!! Well, after 8 months of doing that to no-avail, we started back on the Clomid. I am currently on my 9th consecutive Clomid cycle. I am finally consistantly ovulating, but half of the time it is on the right ovary, which has no tube, so it is worthless over there. But still, the Left should work!!! Well, it wasn't, so my OB sent me to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE, infertility specialist). I loved my OB, but I also love my RE!!! SO, December 2008, we start seeing Dr. A. He is great!! He did a HSG (google it...LOL!!) and it was all clear (although I felt like it was a form of midevil torture, not a diagnostic test!!). We have done 2 consecutive post-coitial tests (PCT's), both have shown all of the present sperm dead (absolutley NOT normal). But, my husbands semen analysis was "awesome/excellent" (which he is sooooo proud of his "little guys"). So, that is where we stand now. I am going in for my third PCT on Monday, and if it is showing the same, then we will know our diagnosis. It looks like I have a form of female Antisperm Antibodies. That basically means that my immune system sees his sperm as an invador and kills it off!! For us, this will mean more invasive procedures to try to concieve, and the realistic possibility that it may never happen. I pray every day thanking God for our wonderful daughter and pleading with Him for the cance to parent more children.
I think that is enough for now...I will be back for more after my appointment on Monday once I know more, and I may even pop on here to post on some of the other wonderful blogs that I have come across when they have their weekly carnivals!! FUN!!!
My whole life I had "womanly" problems, and was told at the ripe age of 13 that I may not ever be able to have children, but failed to ask more questions at that point in time (and really, what 13 year old would?!?!). I was put on birth control pills (BCP) to keep my cycles regular and to actually have cycles. I continued on that BCP until March 2006. We wanted to start our family!!! Easy right, no, but I guess it kinda was.... I went off the BCP in March, and didn't get my period until I took some Provera to induce it. I then started on Clomid!! I took my first Clomid pill on May 15th, 2006, and on June 8th, 2008, much to our surprise, we got a positive pregnancy test!!! (Actually, 8 positive tests because I couldn't believe the first seven!!!) Wow!! I was pregnant!!! I truley did not expect it to hapen so quickly and easily, but still thank God every day that it did!!
I had a rather uneventful pregnancy, well of course except for my cyst. Now, before we get too far, let me tell you that the reason I was told I would have troubles concieving was because I have Polycystic Ovarian Syndrome (PCOS or PCOD). Basically, my hormones are all out-of-whack and I make loads of timy cysts on my ovaries that inhibit ovulation. But, that Clomid stuff was great!! I not only ovulated, but I got pregnant....firt try!!! OK, back to my pregnancy: I had what started out as a corpous leutem cyst on my right ovary. Now, these type of cysts are nessecary in the beginning of every pregnancy. This cyst secretes the hormones necessary to maintain the pregnancy until the end of the first trimester when the placenta is functioning for this. Once the placenta takes over, the cyst is supposed to shrink away to nothing. Not mine...I think mine was possessed!!! Instead of shrinking, mine grew....and grew, and grew, and grew!! Now, luckily I was not having any pains from this cyst throught my pregnancy, but by the time I hit 37 weeks, I was in pain. The pain started off as an uncomfortable feeling, which overnight turned into sharp, stabbing pains. My doctor sent me to the hospital, and we had to get the baby out before any permanent damage was done to me. Our daughter was born at 37 weeks 1 day, weighing 5#6oz. I had to have a C-Section, and at which time the doctor excised my grapefruit sized cyst.
Wow!!! Motherhood is wonderful!! I have a beautiful daughter, who I love more and more with every passing day (even though she is currently undergoing the "terrible two's"). How Blessed are we!!! Well, 6 months after delicery, that rogue cyst came back!!! YUCK!!!! So, I had to have another surgery, and unfortunatley, the cyst had caused my right fallopian tube to lose its blood flow, and the necrotic tissue had to be removed. I lost a tube, but I still had another, and I still had both of my ovaries. The persistant cyst came AGAIN in January of 2008, but ruptured on its own while I was in the ER, so no surgery was necessary. Knock on wood, no more huge cysts since...
So, life is great!! We have a beautiful daughter who we just adore!!! But there is still more love in our hearts to be shared. It was simple last time, so just give me those Clomid pills again, and I will be a happy camper!!!
Not so easy this time!! Actually, starting October 2007 we were off BCP's and trying naturally since for the first time in my life I was having cycles on my own!! Well, after 8 months of doing that to no-avail, we started back on the Clomid. I am currently on my 9th consecutive Clomid cycle. I am finally consistantly ovulating, but half of the time it is on the right ovary, which has no tube, so it is worthless over there. But still, the Left should work!!! Well, it wasn't, so my OB sent me to see a Reproductive Endocrinologist (RE, infertility specialist). I loved my OB, but I also love my RE!!! SO, December 2008, we start seeing Dr. A. He is great!! He did a HSG (google it...LOL!!) and it was all clear (although I felt like it was a form of midevil torture, not a diagnostic test!!). We have done 2 consecutive post-coitial tests (PCT's), both have shown all of the present sperm dead (absolutley NOT normal). But, my husbands semen analysis was "awesome/excellent" (which he is sooooo proud of his "little guys"). So, that is where we stand now. I am going in for my third PCT on Monday, and if it is showing the same, then we will know our diagnosis. It looks like I have a form of female Antisperm Antibodies. That basically means that my immune system sees his sperm as an invador and kills it off!! For us, this will mean more invasive procedures to try to concieve, and the realistic possibility that it may never happen. I pray every day thanking God for our wonderful daughter and pleading with Him for the cance to parent more children.
I think that is enough for now...I will be back for more after my appointment on Monday once I know more, and I may even pop on here to post on some of the other wonderful blogs that I have come across when they have their weekly carnivals!! FUN!!!
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